It seems that you and me alike, are afraid of letting go of control. We are afraid of life out of control, of sh-i-t hitting the fan, of what we will do when that happens. So we keep on controlling, suppressing, resisting, and living a shadow existence.
Whether you believe this or not will make a huge difference for you. At the bottom, at the root of this miserable life is a word, a statement, about you, that you are using your life to alternately prove and disprove. A word that sounds like a fact but it isn’t… it is an opinion, not a fact.
A typical “oscillating structure” is the result, and no one is immune from it.
Oscillating structure (the expression comes from Robert Fritz’s book, The Path of Least Resistance.)
An oscillating structure is like a rocking chair: it gives the experience of movement, but it doesn’t move. It just goes back and forth, proving or disproving a “fact” that is a non-fact, untruth, un-reality, non-fact, therefore it cannot be proven.
Imagine spending your whole life trying to prove something that is unprovable, like the existence of god or the existence of life after death.