You receive lasting Light only if your desire is a desire to receive for the sake of sharing, not a desire to receive for the self alone… But the big mystery of how the heck you can desire to receive for the sake of sharing. Some people have found a way… but not THE way…
Life, and desiring is a lot like walking the tight rope. You lean either way too much and you fall off.
I have had a lot of experience falling off, both sides. So I know.
The secret of walking without falling is
awareness of where you are leaning… not easy.
conscious ability to direct your attention
wide cone of vision
certainty… some call it faith.