Lethargic is a way of being where there is no energy to live, to move forward, and there is not even hope.
It feels like deflated, the life force that was there before disappeared.
Tiredness that doesn’t ease up with rest, a good night’s sleep, isn’t tiredness. It is probably lethargy, depression, or purposelessness.
Why meaning disappears… when the future to live for disappears.
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You don’t see… and you don’t even suspect there is anything to see
Almost all the things you want are there, already, but you can’t see… They are not hidden, they are in plain view, but you look straight at them, and to you they are invisible.
What the F… right?
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One of the weaknesses people seem to have is not knowing how to make decisions. They have no method: it is not taught in school, and I had to learn the hard way, and I am still perfectly unreliable to make the decisions that serve me and my life best.
This series is as much for my benefit as yours: I am going to learn, test, experiment, and write about decision making methods as I happen to them. It is worth reading this blog just for that…
OK. Decision time… Gives you agita, doesn’t it? lol. Let’s make it easier.
Decision Method #1: Cost comparison based decision
I received an email from a Path student. It was a link to a performance we discussed at length on the Path call.
The video was to prove that I was wrong, that his performance wasn’t shabby, that he is not the way I described him
My description was based on what he said when he came to the call. Shabby, blah blah blah.
Le me teach you something really important:
Your power, your happiness, your results in your life will depend on your level of responsibility, aka ownership.
In your life you live as if you had no authority over your life.
Authority means: the power to call the shot. The power to make decisions, the power to have them carried out. The power to evaluate, accept or reject.
You have been instructed by family, schools, government, medical establishment, legal establishment, and gurus to hand over your authority to everyone and their brother.
You’ve been an idle mouthpiece to all these authorities. Not a single independent thought, not a single argument.
What do I mean? I mean the practice of looking who is speaking.
I, occasionally, maybe twice a week, get listless…
So I have been looking into what this listlessness really is. Is it an emotion? Is it a feeling? Where is it coming from?
It’s an unpleasant feeling. Not restful… quite the opposite, it makes me want to get rid of it.
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I am still undecided about making my posts public. I will not stop writing, because writing is how I do my processing, and I will never want to stop processing. But whether I will make it available, my most secret, most precious thoughts to everyone off the street, that is a question I am pondering.
I attempted to turn the blog into a members only site, and it failed. Once burned twice shy, I am not sure what I want to do… So while I am processing this, I will still write articles, or republish others’ if it’s appropriate, like this one:
Nine Voices, Nine Movies
Each of us speaks and writes without thinking. This is why so much of what we say is predictable. Do you want to be more interesting? Choose an unusual perspective and verb tense. A movie begins in the mind of the listener every time you speak or write. At whom is your camera aimed?
Everybody teaches that what you think about comes about. What they base this inane untruth on is the bad things that you somehow seem to “make happen” by concentrating on them through fear.
And although the fear-based “manifestation” is true a lot of the time, the “positive” manifestation happens only as accident, if ever.
The basis of the “negative manifestation” is called self fulfilling prophecy in psychology, which is a pseudo-science based on observation and theories.
Most of the theories in any discipline are wrong, so nothing special about psychology. What is special is how pseudo religion, law of attraction made it a law… churns my stomach. And we all ate it in our fervent desire to gain some control over our lives.
Mistakes… what causes them?
Today is a day when I am mistake-prone. The source of 99% of all my mistakes have been caused by a phenomenon that I see in everyone I speak with… so I am not alone.
The biggest difference between different people is only the frequency with which the incidents occur, no one is immune to this mistake.
I noticed that when I have worry or greed (eager is a version of greed) present, they make my vibration incoherent. I make this type of mistakes far more often. Even my dyslexia is tripling in symptoms when I am incoherent.
How to insult a whole subcontinent? Say you don’t like their food…
Back in 1970, my mother hosted a symposium on some urban planning issue… and a few American professors attended. At a dinner my mother asked me to attend, I spoke to those professors, and they liked me… This was a year before I graduated from architecture school, I was offered a scholarship to Princeton University to get another degree, in urban planning. I had no idea what urban planning was really… but regardless I said… No, thank you.
I said, Naaaay, I am not interested. The professors didn’t even blink.
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