We all have it.
Mine is devastation. It pops up when it’s most unexpected. Devastation is between grief and terror… squeezes a tiny drop of tear in my eye, no matter where I am, who I am with, when it hits.
It comes up often when I compliment someone.
The other day I sent out an email. I ended with a sentence: “I love working with you.”
Most people just ignored it as social grease.
Two people cried.
One person was pierced by it… dumbfounded why.
I am sitting at my desk. Trying to work. Waves of despair, waves of grief, waves of depression wash over me.
None of it is mine.
It’s two days before Christmas, and peak time for depression, and suicides is coming.
Why are people so low around Christmas, when the holiday is supposedly about love?
Because love is a human invention.
I am no historian, but my hunch is that before religion, and without religion there would be no such “thing” as love.
need a last minute Christmas gift?
Have you shopped and shopped and still haven’t managed to get a gift for a loved one?
I know the feeling! I have spent hours getting gifts with a special meaning but there was always someone who either seemed to have everything or or I just couldn’t think of the right thing.
But, don’t worry! I have a solution that is good for even a difficult person to buy for
Some people are like grasshoppers, others like butterflies, some bees, bumble bees. I seem to be the kind of person who sticks with one “plant” until its juices become tasteless, or until it’s time to move on.
My current fascination is with Neal Stephenson, whose novels I would call historical fiction.
I have read the Cryptonomicon, and I am 60% into Quicksilver (The Baroque Cycle No. 1). The main characters of this book are the same family as in Cryptonomicon, only 300 years earlier. In addition to the main characters, Isaac Newton and Gottfried Wilhelm Leibniz. Now, you can do your reading on these two giants of science, mathematics, geometry, astrology, if you want, I won’t do it. I am not into that. I am into catching glimpses of heaven in everything I do, everything I watch, everything I read.
I have been watching, as usual, a TV series, always about crime and such, this one is called White Collar. The main character is a charming, charismatic, good looking, intelligent, young man.
After seeing almost three whole seasons’ worth, I looked up the cast on google. Found out that our guy is gay. I was surprised because I didn’t see any signs of gayness, which are, typically (my personal experience) being attention seeking, catty, gossipy, disloyal, etc.
Instead, our guy is quiet, reserved, loyal to the extreme, kind, and has a huge capacity to love.
He has qualities I appreciate in a person, except I have never seen them in a man. I would say, that these are the innate characteristics of a woman, except that I don’t know a woman who is loyal, who is reserved, who is kind.
I have been talking about these invisible dynamics forever… hundreds of articles about them.
There is no mystery about them, yet you need to actually be willing to look until you see them.
There is a common element in all the invisible dynamics I have looked at, even included the logical fallacies and cognitive biases, which are also part of the invisible dynamics.
And that is what I am talking about in this article. It is there, it is always there, it is already there. Invisible… Lurking in the background, lurking under the conscious detection.
There is nothing wrong with you. And there is nothing right about you either.
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The holidays quickly approaching, this is a very timely topic to deal with: the sarcasm, or sarcastic remarks of the people you meet: instead of holiday cheer, love etc. you need to deal with poison coming through sarcasm. How do you do it? This article will help to look at it differently and save yourself from grief.
Hey Sophie,
I hope you are well.
I’m wondering if you could help me to clarify something?
I’m trying to understand sarcasm.
The Irish people are generally quite sarcastic, it’s called ‘slagging’ here. I think, in general, one is supposed to be able to laugh at himself or answer back in similar manner.
But most of times I don’t really know how to react to it, it’s hurtful sometimes.. and I guess I don’t really know if I’m overreacting? Should I just observe the origin of MY hurt or try to see why perhaps the other person is veiling mockery, i.e. observe THEIR hurt?
Do you hate to learn new things because every time you do, it somehow tells you that you have been wrong? Or not enough? Not good enough?
Well, toughen up princess…
But otherwise it’s normal. I know.
As a child I lived across the street from my elementary school.
I was nearly seven when I went to school, I was born September 4. My mother held me back because I was so tiny. My brother was two years older.
On the first day of school…
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One of my students is a teleseminar junkie, or at least used to be.
Teleseminars can be entertaining, but they can be the exact cause of your lack of action, lack of movement, and your low vibration. How?
For one thing: success and raising your vibration are not about the things that you know, but about the things that you do. Teleseminars talk to your storage device, your mind, and actually cause damage by not allowing you to spend time outside of the mind, not allowing you time to even digest what you hear, because it comes at you like the truth… rehearsed and fake.
You find yourself not sleeping well, eating the wrong thing, not taking care of yourself… Maybe you are getting signs of depression… Maybe you are procrastinating…
How can you restore yourself to wellness? You don’t even know why you are not able to take care of yourself…
Your integrity is out… your sensitive conscience will not let you be well until you set things right.
We do things, little or big, that hurt others, hurt us. And then we expect to have a great life. Not possible.
But certain symptoms start happening. You can’t concentrate, or you can’t sleep well, peacefully. Or you don’t do what you know you must, you procrastinate.
To get out of the deep hole you inequities put you, you need to start taking small steps to restore your integrity, to restore your wholeness.
You can’t love yourself, when your integrity is out, and you can’t love your life when you don’t love yourself.
It is a downward spiral like the tread of the screw, every turn of the screw takes you deeper and deeper into the mire.
