How did you become the person you are today?
It’s Christmas, and my whole thinking is about love, and the lack of it… this article digs deep to why and how love disappeared for most of us.
According to Landmark Education, the identity that you consider yourself to be developed through three or four incidents in your life.
In each incident you experienced to be wrong, less than perfect, less than what would make you lovable, deserving, worthy.
I am sitting at my desk. Trying to work. Waves of despair, waves of grief, waves of depression wash over me.
None of it is mine.
It’s two days before Christmas, and peak time for depression, and suicides is coming.
Why are people so low around Christmas, when the holiday is supposedly about love?
Because love is a human invention.
I am no historian, but my hunch is that before religion, and without religion there would be no such “thing” as love.
Some people are like grasshoppers, others like butterflies, some bees, bumble bees. I seem to be the kind of person who sticks with one “plant” until its juices become tasteless, or until it’s time to move on.
My current fascination is with Neal Stephenson, whose novels I would call historical fiction.
I have read the Cryptonomicon, and I am 60% into Quicksilver (The Baroque Cycle No. 1). The main characters of this book are the same family as in Cryptonomicon, only 300 years earlier. In addition to the main characters, Isaac Newton and Gottfried Wilhelm Leibniz. Now, you can do your reading on these two giants of science, mathematics, geometry, astrology, if you want, I won’t do it. I am not into that. I am into catching glimpses of heaven in everything I do, everything I watch, everything I read.
I have been watching, as usual, a TV series, always about crime and such, this one is called White Collar. The main character is a charming, charismatic, good looking, intelligent, young man.
After seeing almost three whole seasons’ worth, I looked up the cast on google. Found out that our guy is gay. I was surprised because I didn’t see any signs of gayness, which are, typically (my personal experience) being attention seeking, catty, gossipy, disloyal, etc.
Instead, our guy is quiet, reserved, loyal to the extreme, kind, and has a huge capacity to love.
He has qualities I appreciate in a person, except I have never seen them in a man. I would say, that these are the innate characteristics of a woman, except that I don’t know a woman who is loyal, who is reserved, who is kind.
You find yourself not sleeping well, eating the wrong thing, not taking care of yourself… Maybe you are getting signs of depression… Maybe you are procrastinating…
How can you restore yourself to wellness? You don’t even know why you are not able to take care of yourself…
Your integrity is out… your sensitive conscience will not let you be well until you set things right.
We do things, little or big, that hurt others, hurt us. And then we expect to have a great life. Not possible.
But certain symptoms start happening. You can’t concentrate, or you can’t sleep well, peacefully. Or you don’t do what you know you must, you procrastinate.
To get out of the deep hole you inequities put you, you need to start taking small steps to restore your integrity, to restore your wholeness.
You can’t love yourself, when your integrity is out, and you can’t love your life when you don’t love yourself.
It is a downward spiral like the tread of the screw, every turn of the screw takes you deeper and deeper into the mire.
One of the most harmful words in the English language are I, my, and me.
It is not that they are intrinsically harmful! they are harmful the way we relate to their meaning.
Context is decisive. Sometimes these words (I, my and me) are the context, and sometimes they are heard in a context… confusing? Yeah, context has been confusing to many of my students. But being confused is a very high state: the lowest state a human is “knowing.” Why? Because once you think you know, once you think you have the answer, you stop looking, you stop being present, your mind is running the show, the stupid machine that anyone can hack, and they do, and you wouldn’t even know.
What is the highest state? I am not sure. But I am certain that the “I can see that” is higher than “confused”. I am not at the highest state, or if I am, I have no idea what indicates that state… so let’s not go there, ok?
This article will leave you disbelieving that I know you at all… after all you think you know yourself.
But if you allow me to crack the dense bubble you live in, just a little bit, and show you how exercising this capacity will change your life to the better, maybe, and just maybe, you will allow me to get the work done with you…
Why would you resist? Because we all think of having stuff, having love, having capacities, having everything, but we have no idea what having is. But having is possessing, and not doing… and therein lies the mischief.
All speaking is committing. All speaking. Even if it is inside your head, and only you can hear it. Not even… especially those speakings you speak to yourself are committing.
How many of those speakings have you fulfilled upon? Next to none, I guess…
If you had a team that is committed to fulfilling every wish, ever commitment you have, they only need you to act… would that team look at you today and say that you are full of crap? Given that your word has no power? That you don’t mean half of what you say?
So, what has it cost you that you are like that?
No excuse will make it easier or lighter, or less costly.
In my inquiry into this dangerous jungle of different DNA’s within the human race, I started to see the need to work with people, one on one.
Yesterday I lucked out: I had a new client for another business of mine, who is the perfect person with the perfect history to work on and maybe test these issues: What happens if and when you fall in love or are in relationship with someone, whose DNA is not like yours?
Our guy, let’s call him Chad, met a woman some 16-17 years ago. Chad is a scientist and so is his beloved.
Chad is on a crossroads of sort: he needs to decide whether to take this relationship to the next level. It’s been rocky, so he is hesitant. Intimacy has been lacking in the relationship as well. It seems that opposites attract…
There is no light without darkness and there is no darkness without light. If darkness ever takes over for a moment, in that moment light will be reborn.
The pitiful world of internet witches and sorcerers also known as energy practitioners
Lots of women fancy themselves really powerful and really lethal. They have a good story, the typical one is that they knew early on that they were special, blah blah blah.
They can wield energies, and they make money hand over fist (I think), have fan group groupies, tribes… like Teal Scott’s.
You see, there is no need to invent dark spirits, reptilians, ghosts, extraterrestrials… we have our own full house of all-kinds-of people.
I have been attacked, psychically, with energies, for a week now. First one person, then another joined in, and now if I feel it correctly, it is up to five people doing it in tandem.
