If you ever tried to meditate. If you are a ‘meditator’. And if the idea of meditation brings up bile to your throat…
OK who else? Oh, those who couldn’t give a shriveled nut for the idea of mediation… all people…
The only thing meditation wants you is to look within. You spend almost all your life looking outward, and have no idea about what is inside.
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I discuss there three recent healing sessions… I wish I had waited a day… Today we used the entire connection call to heal Maria who is making the rounds from doctor to doctor.
It was an amazing call and very useful. If you would like a listen, you can, but I’ll make you pay for it. Literally. Click here to go to paypal to pay for this recording. Please don’t forget to register onto the site after paying: I’d hate to have to do all the work myself… and all the emailing back and forth.
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If you need encouragement to become X you’ll never be X
Work sets you free
If you need encouragement to become an entrepreneur you’ll never be an entrepreneur.
Context, of course, is decisive… Arbeit macht frei is true… but…
On the gates of hell, on the gates of Auschwitz, Dachau, Theresianstadt that principle feels like mockery. The slogan: Work sets you free through Crematorium number 3. Sob, sob. Weep, weep.
If you need a reason to work, then you’ll never do work.
Soul Correction Soul’s Purpose… are they one and the same?
First off, let me tell you: your soulcorrection is like the middle of your head: you can only see it through a mirror.
When I tell people what is their soulcorrection, they always argue. Because in all their years they have done everything to hide it.
This is what happened today:
A certain Jamie sent me an email, sarcastic in language, asking if it would be too much to ask that I give them what they paid for.
The soulcorrection donation came on May 5. I promptly sent out the email: I saw the payment coming in.
This was 10 weeks ago.
From the language of the email you know that the person is going to be trouble. Mind you, they have aol for email provider, so that should tell you something about their ability to know about the world: aol seriously limits what they allow you to get or not.
Anyway, I sent out the name of the soulcorrection and the link to the post:
here is the correspondence, reproduced:
Jamie: Would it be possible to have you send me the output from this donation?
Me: sharing the flame
Jamie: Not sure I understand the meaning though. Can you, in an e-mail, explicitly state me “soul purpose”?
One great way I have discovered to see the hidden aspects of people that I would not be able to see through my ability as an empath is to get on a video call, but not have my video turned on.
But ask the other to keep their video open.
It is amazing how people don’t experience being seen unless they see you.
I don’t do this often enough. But I should… because of what becomes observable.
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I am not sure who the original dark forces are… they have been around for about three thousand years.
They mean business. I mean business for themselves. These are individuals in a close knit clan, dispersed all over the world, spreading mayhem and fishing in troubled waters.
You work for them. If I had a job, I would work for them. The president of the United States work for them. They own all the banks, all the money on Planet Earth.
They pull the strings in this seemingly chaotic world.
Now, one could think: kill them. But that is more of the same. They can do their dirty deeds only because the conscious awareness of people is so low. And it hasn’t grown.
As a civilization we have been reduced to biological robots, and the chances of breaking out of that predicament is slim.
The scenario of the Matrix movie is both true and untrue.
In that movie, your biological piece was used as an energy cell, and only your computer character actually moved, changed location, etc.
In the real world, (no, not a hologram, as far as I can see), you are carrying around your piece. But other than that, you haven’t had an original thought probably ever.
Suggestions? yes. But original, un-influenced thought, probably never.
Why? Because that is how the Dark Side wants it.
Just watch yourself: you fill every waking moment with noise, brain candy, “information,” so you could never have a moment of reflection where you could maybe see through the possible cracks of this hoax we are living.
Instead of “killing them” I am interested in getting to know them enough, that I can mount an effective campaign to awaken people. Some people.
I knew they existed, I felt it all my life, but
1. I had no idea if I was targeted special or everyone was as miserable as I was
2. I had no recourse: I felt totally powerless given the onslaught of miserable feelings permeating me 80% of the time.
Recently I am starting to get insights, a little differentiation, some shades of gray, a little better grip on the “game.”
The first opening was when I discovered that the feelings I feel were mostly not mine.
There is a great working model that helps you understand the phenomenon if you read the amazing science fiction novel, The Mind Parasites by Colin Wilson. You probably can’t get a newly printed copy, but you can always buy a used copy, it is worth it.
It will free you up enough to start coming from your power instead of your weaknesses.
One of the things I learned (and never honored, really, lol) from this book is to tread lightly… to move without noise, to not exclaim victories, to not brag, to not announce to the world that I am winning, because it immediately gets the attention of the Mind Parasites, which is an analogy of the Dark Side.
It is not me to tread lightly. I was born to be a leader, and an overt leader at that. So I have been barraged with attacks that even with the methods I have cannot be fended off.
You have two selves. Everyone has two selves. One is your real self, impervious to attacks, slights.
‘That is not true’, you say. ‘I feel like I am attacked, I feel every slight is an attack on me.’
Yeah, this is all true what you say if you identify yourself with your precious I, the second self.
The precious I is an invented self, and it is the sum total of all your aspects.
One of the differences is that a 1000 always has a coach or coaches… mentors, people they talk to regularly, who are, in certain respects, ahead of them. People who can see what they can’t see.
See principles, distinctions, aberrations, errors, false steps, causation.
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Hidden stuff, suppressed stuff, when it has a chance to spill out, has a tendency to reek (smell bad) and wreak havoc.
I am reading a book that heals by digging out such stuff… it doesn’t stop there, you’ll see.
Anyway, I am reading it, and obviously the mind has a tendency to dig along with the clients, dig along with what you read… no, my mind has the tendency to dig along, after all, I know the value of digging.
So, I must have dug quite a little, because I didn’t want to get up today. Then I had a digging conversation with a friend I wanted to start a business with and decided not to pursue the business. Then I read an email request for a private session outside of my schedule and the s**t hit the fan.
I felt offended, I felt violated, I was irate. After all people should ask for a time slot I have available, not something else… right?
The reaction was off the wall disproportionate to the trigger: after all I know how to say no, right? Baaaah!
Oh ho, something big got unearthed!
I dug deep in my personal history to see what this email triggered. I found tons of incidents with injustice, asking for what I didn’t want to give, or didn’t have, and accusing me of being bad, or unkind.
Most of the incidents “starred” my mother. I found myself sobbing. The incidents happened 50-60 years ago. I wrecked my brain to recall an incident that was pleasant, but each lead to another direction of horrific incidents, teachers abusing little kids, doctors fondling little kids, horror, oh horror.
Finally I found something that had no negative anything: my mom had a black currant bush in her cottage garden and she used to make me back currant preserves. Just for me. I love those: they are tart with a hint of sweetness. I haven’t had anything like that for over 30 years. Now I can call myself “the daughter for whom my mother made black currant preserves”, instead of all the horrid stuff.
It is hard to believe that a small positive memory used as a mantra can alter my relationship to abuse, abusive people, users, and such. It seems to be working. I’ll keep at it. Being personally offended is one of the most unpleasant feelings I can feel.
On another note, this whole upset thing didn’t start today.
In fact it started with me downloading the first set of activators for real love. The activators covered 9% of real love… and true to form I came unglued. All activators first do that to me: it lasts anywhere from 3-5 days, and then I have a lifetime of bliss with the elevated consciousness.
There are probably many origin myths. Every group has one, because curiosity is as innate with humans as wanting the best life possible.
An origin myth explains why humans are the way they are… and in a way it also serves as a ‘how to play this game of life’ instruction book.
I am familiar with the ‘god created everything in six days and on the seventh he rested’ myth. Unfortunately, when I look, it doesn’t explain anything well, and it gives instructions that need a PhD to understand, let alone follow. So no, I don’t buy this myth, even though billions of humans do.
I like the Kabbalistic origin myth because in my work of penetrating the invisible I haven’t found anything that doesn’t seem to fit. This includes science too.
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