I am reading many books, many articles. They all say that my life could be better, would be better if I just looked at the bright side of things. But that… looking at only the bright side of things, actually leads to a boring, inauthentic life. What makes good good is the contrast… No bad? Not looking at it? there suddenly isn’t good either… only boring, dull, dead. And you can’t sleep…
Moreover, if the purpose of life is to become all you can be, to see all you can see, then what helps you most is seeing what is not so great about you.
My base nature is to see what is off. In anything, anywhere.
It is not pessimism, because I don’t think it is something bad. It is what is off. It is not negativity, because I don’t limit my looking and I don’t limit my seeing to only what doesn’t work: I also see what works.
Life is dull when you see only one side of things…
The dullest people are the ones with the rose colored glasses… And inside, they are also conflicted, struggle with guilt, self-blame, and misery.